Heylo again…this is gonna be another rant aha…don’t I love ranting? I do actually..lol..no really, all of my rants are all things that bother/piss me off, so yaaah, let’s begin shall we?
Now from my title, you can probably know what it’s going to be about. So obviously, I’m not going to mention any names here..but I have this one friend, I went to college with her, and throughout my 3 college years, we have gotten close. Random side note, is that my cousin told me (before I stared college) is that the people you meet in College/Uni, you will “click” with them a lot more, than ones in high school. Its because you’re in the same program, or relevant program, and you share the same interest as each other. So naturally, you bond better.
And so, I found a really good friend, who likes the same stuff as me, and even are the same personality type <- does that make sense? Like she’s shy and quiet too, like me :3
OK, so, anyways my friend graduated a year earlier than I did, (because our program had this extended version of the program and I took that one, whereas she took the shortened version) and so, for my last year, she was not in school anymore (duh) Because of that, I’ve lost in touch with her by a lot. I’m not really great at keeping in touch with people, I don’t even talk to any of my high school “friends” so, yeah, go figure.
ANyways, I try my best to keep in touch with her, because I genuinely like her as a person and good friend. We talk occasionally, but lately she hasn’t even responded any of my messages on Facebook. Or that she takes forever long to reply back…(I sound like a dude, don’t I?) And you know Facebook now, it makes it so damn obvious that someone has read your messages with that check mark sign… And also that she is active on Facebook, like I see her liking stuff and posting whatever on her wall..
Wow, I sound like a naggy and clingy person huh? 😦 Anyways, the point is, I’m just scared I will lose her as a friend. She was so nice to me, and I really felt “like myself'”, and I was comfortable whenever I am with her. Sometimes when I’m with my other friend, she just drives me crazy and my anxiety goes up the roof.
Recently I asked my college friend if she wanted to go to some Anime convention lol, and she responded shortly after saying shr would come if I would go. SO I was like, great, let’s plan for it then!..and then she stopped responding again..-_- Am I really that…boring…unintersting? >.< Sighs, anyways, that was my problem of the day (besides from the previous nuisance).
I just don’t know anymore, am I the only one feeling this way? I just feel like every single one of my friends will leave me…and who will I be then? >__< I don’t want to keep thinking of that…sighs…alright, enough of this sad crap…Imma go now… I Hope things will be brighter for me soon….